My name is Paul Eric Haneline, I have been living a life of addiction to meth, anger, control, and hatred. I was lost in a path of destruction. If I had known God I would have never slipped so deep into my addiction.

When it all started I was a little boy. I lived with my mother and stepfather. My mom is and was a great mother, but my stepfather on the other hand was a different story. He abused me. My brother and I were taken from my mother. We were not able to see her again for a very long time. It made me have hatred toward authority because they took me from my mother.

Then later, my real father came and got custody of me but not my brother. I was so sad and developed issues because I felt so bad. I thought it was my fault my little brother wasn’t able to come with me. When my real father had two more girls and a boy I felt like I needed to take care of them, it was my duty. I felt I failed my duties to my little brother.

If my dad would had showed me he loved me, I would of felt like I would be a better father, but the whole time I did have a Father that loved me. His name is God, if I knew Him then I would have been a better father. A few years later I got to move back in with mom and her new boyfriend, who became her husband today, his name is Lenny. He showed me all the things a father needs to know but by that time my heart had hardened. The drugs were blinding me.

When I was 21 I had my son his name is Elijah, I had stopped using. I started working two jobs to support my family. Lenny taught me that no matter what; a man must take care of his responsibilities even if it’s a child needing a daddy. So I took Isaiah as my own and I still do to this day.

If would have known God then like I do today I could have fulfilled what it is says in Proverbs 22:6 “ Train up a child in the way he should go and when he is old, he will not depart from it.” But I have learned at Shepherd’s Fold, they have showed me who God is and what God is about. I can fulfill that and I will, just have faith.

My name is Clifton Chad Burcham. I was born June 1, 1971 in Jonesboro, AR to Larry and Debbie Burcham. My mother left my dad and me when I was 7 months old, and my dad raised me. I grew up in church as a child, my dad married again and that failed. When I was 14 my dad had remarried again to my mom who adopted me and she has been there for me since.

When I was 16 I fell into my addiction. I married at 19 years of age and had one son then divorced two years later. At the age of 21 I met my wife Rachel we were married 16 years. In the year 2001 I was in my addiction hard. I got in serious trouble and I ended up in prison for two years. My wife and I had three wonderful children that I love dearly. On April 11, 2011 I woke up to find that my wife had passed away in her sleep. I was lost. I fell back into addiction. I was blaming God.

One year later my dad helped me get into mission teens. I stayed there 7 ½ months. I have now found Jesus. I came home and three days later I called Shepherd’s Fold and I have been here ever since. I just knew God had a calling for me and it is here at The Fold. Shepherd’s Fold has showed me I am needed here because Christ led me here. I just want to tell Shepherd’s Fold Thank You.

My name is Steve Hooks and I am 50 years old. I can remember drinking as a young child. I was suspended from school on senior picture day for drinking. I look back and see how God kept me save in my mess. I totaled numerous vehicles and shouldn’t be alive due to the alcohol and the wrecks. God was protecting me for a purpose.

As I graduated up the ladder of drugs I began to lose my possessions along with others that didn’t belong to me to feed my addiction. Thanks to my parents love, guidance, and discipline I was raised in church. I went to summer camp with a friend and I invited another friend to come along with us. We were both saved that summer.

Almost 40 years ago I was saved. The same friend that got me to that camp also got me here to Shepherd’s Fold. I have been to other rehabilitation a facilities but wasn’t really ready to quit using drugs. This is the first faith based program I have been to. I was scared and didn’t know what to expect. I knew I had to do something and I was ready to do anything. Thank God above for my friend. I have a wonderful family. My kids are all saved and have been baptized. Now so have I, since I’ve been here at Shepherd’s Fold. Thank you, God and Shepherd’s Fold for saving my life and showing me the way.

My name is Jeremy Luster. I am 35 years old. I don’t remember most of my childhood but what I do remember has haunted me for most of my life. When I was seven years old my mom was in the process of leaving my step-dad. The day we were going to leave him my mom was dropping me off at school and I asked her if I could go help her with everything but she told me no. After the school day was over my mother didn’t pick me but my uncle did. My uncle broke the news to me that my mother had been killed in a car accident. Immediately all the bad things my step father had ever done entered my mind. Two years went by before I went back to school and during those two years I was filled more and more everyday with rage of the way he had treated my mother. At the age of 13 I was filled with so much rage that I couldn’t take it anymore. I snapped! I went to get a gun and was planning on physically harming him. I never went through with it. Later I found out that he was drinking and driving and had a car accident. He killed the other family and crippled himself I later found out he killed himself because of all his grief. Even after all this time I still carried around all this hate and unforgiveness. All of these circumstances helped to get me waist deep in my mess. I’ve done drugs since I was 14 and been in and out of jails and rehabs since I started using. After 21 years of using I finally hit rock bottom, and nobody wanted me around. I needed help and the Lord heard my cry. My friends daughter found out about Shepherd’s Fold and it was no where but up from that moment on. As soon as I walked through the doors I felt a huge weight lift of my shoulders and I knew I was exactly where I needed to be. I felt love and I learned how to love. Most of all I let go of the horrible things my stepfather did to my mother and I. I found a peace in the Lord and no longer let those past hang-ups bring me back to the point of usage. Jesus Christ literally saved my life.

My name is Jeremy, I’m 32 years old and I’m from Jonesboro, AR. I’ve been living in sin for the past 17 years. I came from a good home with a mother and step father who cared for me and raised me right. I guess the root of my addiction was trying to deal with the pain I’ve experienced most of my life. When I was an infant I lost my father to cancer. I don’t have any memories of him, just a few old photos. It never really bothered me until I got older, I think it was due to my mother telling me at an early age… which I thank her for rather than waiting till I was older. When I was 10 my brother was killed in an accident that happened on a jobsite in Little Rock. Losing him really affected me harder than my dad because I actually got a chance to know him and loved him deeply. I couldn’t shake the pain no matter what I did. I’ve lost a lot of family members over the years, as well as, friends due to suicide, overdoses, and murder. When I was 15 I started using anything I could get my hands on to try and numb the pain I felt but nothing sufficed. Since then I’ve been to jail countless times for drug and alcohol related charges. I tried to fill the emptiness in my heart with drugs, alcohol, and toxic relationships but nothing ever sufficed. Because of my drug use I couldn’t hold down a job and was pushing everyone I cared about away form me. Then my sister told me about The Fold, so I called Steve. As soon as I heard his voice on the phone I let go and broke down. I was at the end of my rope and couldn’t do it anymore or I knew I was going to die. He accepted me and the next morning I arrived in Cardwell. I was a little apprehensive at first because I never knew God. Everyone made me feel welcome and accepted. I could feel the love coming from everyone in the house. Three nights later we had a service in the sanctuary. I listened to the words that were coming from behind the pulpit, and I can’t describe the way a felt other than I was filled with peace and love. I had a hunger for more. That night I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and automatically started changing my habits and the way I felt about everything in my life. For the first time in my life I can honestly say that I’m truly happy and it’s only by the grace of God. I finally know who He is and I’ve never believed in anything more in my entire life. I’ve broke free from all the hang-ups that have hindered me over the years and let go of the pain I’ve carried around all this time. Now I have a Father again and more brothers than I could ever ask for.

My name is Josh Parnell and I’m 20 years old. My parents got a divorce when I was four years old so I grew up in a divided household. I got in a lot of trouble growing up, mainly at school. When I was thirteen my mom remarried to a cop and we moved to a different city and school. It was hard for me to make friends because of who my step dad was. So when I was seventeen I decided to try to fit in by using illegal substances. I got what I wanted, it worked but it turned out not to be worth it because I ended up getting arrested a year after starting. I did well for about seven months only because of probation. Then I went back to it and more dangerous substances. A year after I was arrested the first time, I got arrested again. While I was in jail and becoming more and more sober each day, I was realizing what I was doing to my self and my family. So while in jail I cried out to God and asked for forgiveness and help after a jail ministry came through and talked to me and one man even gave me his Bible. So I started reading God’s word and praying for help from God. I called my dad and asked him to find me somewhere that could help me. I asked God to help my dad find a place for me and to place it in the judges heart to let me go and get the help I needed. God helped my dad find Shepherds’ Fold and put it in the judge’s heart to let me come here. I couldn’t believe that he would answer my prayers because of all I had done, but He did. I even got to go to court a day early.

So on February 13, 2012 I came to Shepherd’s Fold and strengthened my new life with Christ. Since I’ve been at The fold my faith in God, my prayer life, and my love for Christ have gotten so much stronger. God has restored my relationship with my family and answered many prayers. I’ve realized that I need God with me always so that I may live the best life possible. I thank God for everything He has done for me.

My name is Randy Rainwater. I was born January 25, 1966 in Walnut Ridge, AR to Richard and Laura Rainwater. I was the youngest of 10 children. I grew up in a loving Christian home, attending church until I graduated high school. I was married in June 1985 and my son was born in April 1986. My drinking started right off and at the age of 18 as a social drinker. When my son was 18 months old, my wife left us for what I thought was my best friend. After three years I married again to a lady with two children, both boys. We were together for 12 years. The marriage was very shaky all the way through even with attending and being involved in church. I had worked into a very demanding management position and had started using alcohol almost daily to try to relieve stress. With the job, marriage issues, and alcohol, I then started into other addictions. In February 2000 I moved to Lebanon, Missouri to another job within the same company. My son moved in with his mother and my wife stayed in Arkansas. I then continued heavier into drinking. We divorced in 2001. In 2004 I married again to a lady with three children. I slowed down on the drinking but it was still daily. The marriage only lasted three years. I sank back into heavy drinking, lost a job with a company I had spent 27 years at. There was a good Christian lady that worked at my job and we had become friends. She had seen me through all these separations, loneliness, and etc. Her only plea was for me to come to church with her and give my life over to GOD. In 2010 she sat and watched me detox for seven days. I started church with her on a regular bases, and then we were married in June 2011. I had a good job but again very demanding position. I decided one day to have one drink to calm down. At that instant I took my eyes off GOD and allowed that crack to open for the enemy. Within four months I was back to where I was the first time. My wife and daughter-in-law found Shepherd’s Fold Ministry and I came in November 2012. At Shepherd’s Fold I have restored my relationship with God. I have overcame the need for alcohol, God has restored a relationship with my son, grandbabies, and I am happy. God has a plan for everyone and a purpose. His plan for me was to get me still and quite and put people who truly loved me in my path. His plan was Shepherd’s Fold Ministry.

My name is David Yates I was born and raised in Memphis, TN. I was blessed with a great close-knit family. I had a great relationship with my mother and grandmother but what I lacked most was a good relationship with my father. My parents worked full time jobs. My grandmother basically raised me until I went to school. I still remember the day she left. It was very tragic for me. So naturally when she left I clung to my mother. My father was a good man he just could not connect with me on an emotional and loving level. Even though I needed that desperately. I was always trying to earn approval from him but no matter how hard I tried he would always point out what I was doing wrong. Which left me with so much shame and guilt of not of not being worthy of being his son. I remember my grandmother taking me to church when I was young but when she left I stopped going. My parents claimed to be people of God but they did not go to church. I finally started going to church when I was about 13 with my best friend and his family. At first, I wasn’t really looking for a relationship with God. As I kept going I felt God tugging at my heart. This is where I learned of the musical gift God blessed me with. I became the drummer of that church and loved every moment of it. I was growing in God and was enjoying it. I was growing in my knowledge and love for God but things at home where quickly deteriorating. My parent’s relationship fell apart. My father fell into a heavy gambling addiction. My parents used me to communicate to each over which torn me in two directions. Finally it got to the point where my dad would stay gone for days at a time. So my mother had to try and fill both rolls and that is just something one person should not have to bare. In return she became bitter and just started deteriorate as a mother in my eyes. The one person I had loved more than anything became irritated with me and me at her. We began to fight uncontrollably. When I entered 10th grade I started hanging around with the wrong crowd searching for approval from everywhere but God. I was 15 when I started using drugs. I loved it. I thought I had finally found the solution to my problems. I fell out of church and became angry with God. My family tried to intervene especially my mother. I just would not listen. I was determined to keep doing what I thought was the solution. By this time my father had gambled everything we owed away. He left and my mom filed for a divorce. In my mind I had lost all hope in building a relationship with my father. I got out of control so my mother sent me to live with him. Now I felt as though my mother rejected me. I remember thinking “what’s wrong with me.” Why can’t I do anything right. So in return I fell deeper and deeper in my addiction soon to find myself more lost and lonelier than before. Except this time I couldn’t get out even if I wanted to. I was sick and just kept getting sicker. I cried out to God saying God help me. Let me wake up and just forget it ever happened (I was thinking this in the back of my mind) God’s not listening. He wants nothing to do with me just like my parents. But one day I called my mother, broke down, and told her everything she called a few places with one being Shepherd’s Fold. She told me to pack my stuff and come to Jonesboro. I ended up thinking I could do this on my own. I thought I could find God and live soberly on my own. I didn’t go to Shepherd’s Fold. I plugged into church and started beginning my road to recovery with God. I poured my heart out to Him but at the same time I would not surrender everything. I made it about 6 months and put God on the back burner and said “ I got this” I made it to my 9 months and fell hard. I picked up where I left off before I came. Finally it came to a point where I had to choose life or death. I agreed to come to Shepherd’s Fold. Here I’ve been able to sit still and let God do what He has to do. It hasn’t been easy but from day one God has not left my side, he has not and will not give up on me. He has poured His love out on me and has finally made me feel like I’m worth something. Thanks to Him I have a purpose and future. He restored my family to me and put my parents back together. Now my father and I have the best relationship. I know He has not even began to scratch the surface of the future He has for me. Now I am truly say He is number one in my life. I know I am His beloved child. I thank God He put me in a place filled with His Spirit and the place I now call home is Shepherd’s Fold.